April 3, 2006 Lord, I don't think it is any coincidence that I had a dream regarding XXXXXXX last night. I know he was not your will for my life, at least not at this point in time. I have peace about the end of our relationship, and trust completely that you know what you are doing. I read that book "Single and Loving It!", by Kate McVeigh, yesterday, which of course, brought XXXXXXX to mind. I rebuke these feelings of sadness and cast them away from my mind and heart. He is your child, not mine, and you will provide for his needs. It is not my responsibility, and you would never ask any of your children, other than your Son, to save another. I know you have a bigger plan for my life, and I praise you for it. Thank you for the peaceful and relaxing weekend you blessed me with. Thank you for the words from you during church yesterday, and moving me to write those words down for further study. Thank you for showing me that I am "treading water" and afraid to allow myself to see your glory, yielding completely to you. Thank you for showing me I need to allow myself to be carried out by your great current into deeper waters. Last night, I practiced this concept in prayer, and I can feel my hesitation to let myself go. I know that there is nothing to fear, but your presence is so overwhelming... I hold back. Please show me your way, and take me to deeper waters. I submit to you, my King. Today, though it is only Monday morning, I have been faced with a new challenge. A situation with the public school system and one of our before-school students was mishandled by a bus driver, and has caused some complication, and upset parents, that I have to deal with. Please give me your wisdom and words to minimize the problem. Please give me your patience and help me not to complain about it to others, but to cast all my cares on you. I love you. Back