March 30, 2006, Part 2

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The last few weeks, I had a beloved staff member of mine behave in a way that shocked all of us at our school, and she quit very angrily with no notice. It was heartbreaking for me, and challenging on a professional level also. There's the upsetting situation with my ex-husband and my daughters, that I will leave without further comment here. Then there's this tax situation at the school, that I committed to you, that is still unresolved and is taking a lot of time and energy to handle. The phone is just ringing off the hook... it's been crazy! You know also, that we are undergoing transition because we have a new pastor, so there's a lot of new things happening right now. (I do  thank you, because it seems you are putting together a powerful, on-fire team for this ministry, and I know you are bringing about a new beginning there.) I have had several situations with parents of students, who are normally calm, nice, and appreciative, act out toward me about situations that to be honest, were my job to handle in the manner in which I did. People have been mad at me because they have to sign billing papers for free child care! It seems this is happening constantly right now. Yesterday, I had the issue with the new little 6-year-old boy having a temper tantrum to the point that I was injured by him while trying to keep him from hurting himself and others, myself included. Mom was not supportive at all, and behaved irrationally too. I have the former pastor's daughter mad at me because I had to tell her no (do my job), and a grandmother of a student mad at me because I asked her to sign a county-required scheduling paper for Pete's sake. This is happening constantly! </div> <bR> <div> Father, you know it is my desire to represent You in a manner consistent with Your Holy Character. I am trying desperately to "Reflect Something Holy". I just feel right now like I am running against the wind. I am so tired. The enemy of my soul seems to be trying to wear me down, distract me, discourage me, get me to lose my witness, and worst of all, extinguish this burning fire in my soul for you. God, please help me.</div> <bR> <div> Praise You, Father, I must be on the right track to be getting such resistance from the enemy. I also know, Lord, that You will never allow something to come into my life that You will not walk me through, You will go before me.</div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I>I will go before you </I></div> <div> <I>and will level the mountains; </I></div> <div> <I>I will break down gates of bronze </I></div> <div> <I>and cut through bars of iron. </I></div> <div> <I>Isaiah 45:2</I></div> <bR> <bR> <div> I thank you that what the enemy intends for harm will be used for my good. </div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I>You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good...</I></div> <div> <I>Genesis 50:20</I></div> <bR> <div> Thank you that You are helping me grow and become closer to You through this. I trust You.</div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I>Trust in the LORD with all your heart </I></div> <div> <I>and lean not on your own understanding; </I></div> <div> <I> in all your ways acknowledge him, </I></div> <div> <I>and he will make your paths straight.</I></div> <div> <I>Proverbs 3:5-6</I></div> <bR> <div> I hear your voice telling me that I need to stop trying so hard. Please show me how to let go and to just allow You to do Your work. Help me to stop trying to do this on my own. </div> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <I>It's not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord!</I></div> <div> <I>Zechariah 4:6</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.</I></div> <div> <I>Philippians 4:13</I></div> <bR> <div> <I>Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,</I><FONT SIZE="1" COLOR="#000000" FACE="Arial" ><I> </I></FONT><I>looking to Jesus, the founder and perfector of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.</I></div> <div> <I>Hebrews 12:1-3</I></div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id2.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Journal Entries"><U>Back</U></A></div> </tD> </tR> </TABLE></div> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>