Living My Own Movie

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Maybe it’s because 32 isn’t very old, but who knows. </div> <bR> <div> One day, I was talking with a friend about some of the movies that I love. He asked me why I thought I loved those movies so much. I pondered this after our discussion. Why did I love these movies so much? What did they all have in common? Well, for me anyway, my movie choices always involve intense emotion, dramatic story lines, and usually passionate love that may or may not triumph in the end. </div> <bR> <div> I reflected on my life. Up until this point, I have spent my days trying to avoid problems, trouble, and heartbreak. But what was that all about? The same things that make a great movie are the exact things I have spent my entire life trying to avoid! Could it be that maybe I need to look at life as an adventure? </div> <bR> <div> What a concept. How many times have I read a story or watched a movie, all the while secretly yearning to have experiences the folks in them have? What makes life beautiful? Isn’t it the whole story? The beginning all the way through to the end? The Fall and the Salvation? The persecution and the justification? The poverty and the prosperity? The sickness and the healing? The broken heart and the restored love? Would any of these stories or movies have been even a portion as beautiful if they had not had the bad to help appreciate the good? </div> <bR> <div> This may not sound like a very remarkable breakthrough to some, but for me it is a big deal. I intend, with God’s help, to approach life with arms wide open, seeking new and exciting opportunities, to welcome the uncertainties and pain, all because I believe now more than ever that life is a gift, my own personal movie script. I intend to make it a movie that I would love to see! </div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <DIV ALIGN="LEFT"></DIV> <div> <TABLE BORDER="2" CELLPADDING="2" CELLSPACING="1" WIDTH="549" BORDERCOLORLIGHT="#C0C0C0" BORDERCOLORDARK="#808080" FRAME="BOX" RULES="ALL" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0" > <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 20 WIDTH="172"><div> <B>Movies I Love</B></div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> <B>  Reasons</B></div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> <B>Conclusion</B></div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 ><NOBR><div> Dances With Wolves</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> historical value, plus I really like Rodney A Grant (actor)</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> This movie reflects my love for Native American culture</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 76 ><NOBR><div> Passion of the Christ</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP><NOBR><div> it's about my Savior</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> This movie gives me a reality check every time I see it, restores my own passion for my Jesus</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 38 ><NOBR><div> Phantom of the Opera</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> The Phantom's love for Christine</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> Oh, to be in love that deeply!</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 ><NOBR><div> The Mummy</div> <div> The Mummy Returns</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Imhotep's love for Anuksunamun, Egyptology</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> Oh, to be in love that deeply!</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 38 WIDTH="172"><div> Diary of a Mad Black Woman</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Redemption, healing of a broken heart</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> This movie represents my hope for the future.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 76 WIDTH="172"><div> The Notebook</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP><NOBR><div> Noah & Allie's true love</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I believe true love survives years of separation if it is what is meant to be.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 76 WIDTH="172"><div> Serendipity</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP><NOBR><div> The idea of "destiny"</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I believe true love survives years of separation if it is what is meant to be.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 115 ><NOBR><div> The Godfather I, II, III</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Besides the fact that Al Pacino is about as cool as they come, I love mafia movies, I assume for the justice that inevitably occurs</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I have a deep sense of justice.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 WIDTH="172"><div> City of Angels</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Seth gave up eternity to spend moments with his true love</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> Oh, to be in love that deeply!</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 WIDTH="172"><div> You've Got Mail</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> The deep friendship that blossomed into true love</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I desire to be in love some day with my best friend</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 WIDTH="172"><div> What Dreams May Come</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Robin Williams goes through hell to save his true love</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> Oh, to be in love that deeply!</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 38 WIDTH="172"><div> Devil's Advocate</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Defeat of evil</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I have a deep sense of justice.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 76 WIDTH="172"><div> End of the Spear</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> historical value, seeing God's perfect will come to pass</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I love indigenous rainforest cultures, and I love seeing God's plan unfold</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 38 WIDTH="172"><div> Hope Floats</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Redemption, healing of a broken heart</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> This movie represents my hope for the future.</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 57 WIDTH="172"><div> Stolen Women, Captured Hearts</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Oh man, I guess this movie is just my perfect fantasy ;)</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> I long for passion in a relationship!</div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 38 ><NOBR><div> Gone With The Wind</div> </NOBR></tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="179"><div> Rhett's love for the intolerable Scarlett</div> </tD> <tD VALIGN=TOP WIDTH="172"><div> Oh, to be in love that deeply!</div> </tD> </tR> </TABLE></div> <bR> <div> If you enjoy reading or movies, I encourage you to make your own list. </div> <div> You just might be surprised what that list will tell you about yourself. My own list showed me how important it is for my future love to be my best friend, passionate, protective, and deeply in love with me; basically how important a romantic relationship is to me in general. I also discovered how important  justice, redemption, and following God's perfect plan are in my life. My list also reflects my love for archaeology and Native American cultures. </div> <bR> <bR> <bR> <div> <A HREF="id3.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Deep Thoughts"><U>Back</U></A></div> </tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 159 WIDTH="584"><IMG BORDER="0" SRC="1x1.gif" HEIGHT="159" ALIGN="bottom" WIDTH="584" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></tD> </tR> <tR> <tD VALIGN=TOP HEIGHT= 159 WIDTH="584"><IMG BORDER="0" SRC="1x1.gif" HEIGHT="159" ALIGN="bottom" WIDTH="584" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></tD> </tR> </TABLE></div> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>